:(

It's really hard for me not to listen to the Carpenters, their lyrics are so depressing, but her voice is so-so-so good.

"Oh, but now I'm so much better, So if my words don't come together
Listen to the melody, 'Cause my love is in there hiding
I love you in a place where there is no space or time
I love you for my life, you are a friend of mine
And when my life is over, remember when we were together
And we were alone , and I was singing my song for you"

I haven't gotten rid of his gifts or my gifts that I had for him.
I know it's probably healthier if I throw them away or move it to a place where I won't be able to see it, but I can't.
I also know that if I simply leave them where they lay, I'm somewhat trying to preserve a memory.
A memory that causes more harm then good.